Prologue


Freewill.
Some have called it the greatest gift bestowed on humanity. It is
our ability to control what happens to us and exactly how it happens.
We are the masters of our fate and no one can foist their will on us
unless we allow it.
Others say freewill is a crap myth. We have a preordained destiny
and no matter what we do or how hard we fight it, life will happen to us
exactly as it’s meant to happen. We are only pawns to a higher power
that our meager human brains can’t even begin to understand or
comprehend.
My best bud, Acheron, once explained it to me like this. Destiny is a
freight train rolling along on a set course that only the conductor
knows. When we get to the railroad crossing in our car, we can choose
to stop and wait for the train to pass us by, or try to pull out in
front of it and beat that bad boy across.
That choice is our freewill.
If we choose to rush ahead, the car we’re in might stall on the
tracks. We can then choose to try and start the car or wait for the
train to plow into us. Or we can get out to run and fight the destiny
of the train slamming into us and killing us where we stand. By
choosing to run, our foot could get caught in the tracks or we could
slip and fall.
We could even say to ourselves, “there’s no way I’m dumb enough to
fight the train” and hang back to safely wait. Then the next thing we
know, a truck rams us from behind, throwing us straight into the train’s
path.
If it is our destiny to be hit by the train, we will be hit by the
train. The only thing we can change is how the train turns us into
hamburger.
I personally, don’t believe in this crap. I say I control my destiny
and my life.
No nothing controls me.
Ever.
I am what I have become because of the interference and secrets of
one creature. Had things been done differently, my life would have been
a whole other enchilada. I would not be where I am today and I would
have had a life worth living instead of the nightmare my life has
become.
But no, by keeping his deepest secrets, my best friend betrayed me
and turned me into the darkness I’m learning to embrace. Our fates and
destinies were mashed together by a freak event that happened when I
was a kid and I curse the day I ever called Acheron Parthenopaeus my
friend.
I am Nick Gautier.
And this is my life and how things should have been…